I AM The Thinker That Thinks The Thought that Creates The Things

During my Spirit of Brotherhood class yesterday at Hillside Chapel and Truth Center, I had an "Ah ha!" moment. The facilitator of the meeting Brother Wade was inspired by Spirit (or God) to bring an article and share it with the class. The article had some key points on Metaphysics, Quantum Theory, and depression which peeked my interests. I was already on fire during the class but this article really brought everything home for me.

I had been studying Quantum Theory for almost a week so when I saw it mentioned in the article I knew it was confirmation for something bigger but I didn't know what for. As we continued to read the article out loud, we began to cover the topic of depression and how it is linked primarily to our thoughts. We then discussed that we as Children of God are creative beings and that we are creating all the time. We had mentioned this Truth before but it really didn't resonate with me until this class. 

We are in essence creative beings and sometimes we create things we really don't want but attract to our experience through thought, feelings, actions, and reactions. Well, Monday I had a great day at work. I did a pretty good job at leading my team towards the company goals so I felt good about that. It wasn't until I got home later that evening that I began to feel...depressed. 

I came to the realization that I was in a rut and was tired of the routine, predictable life I was living. I knew something needed to change but I didn't know what exactly. This state of mind lasted for a couple of hours. I knew I was fatigued but I'd been tired plenty of times but not to the point where I felt this kind of depression.  

I knew how to cure it though. 

I grabbed my smartphone and put on some old school Hiphop!

I knew that would make me feel better and it did because it took my mind to happier times and times when I was "creative" or I should say times when I was creating what I wanted to see manifest in my experience, even though I didn't know that's what I was doing at the time. So when we talked about depression in class last night, the bells, alarms, and sirens, all went off at the same time like I had hit triple 7 on a Vegas slot machine. 

I received the payout!

I realized that I was depressed because I had not been consciously expressing my thoughts, meaning I was creating my experience BUT not intentionally. I immediately realized the source of my frustration and the depression I experienced the night before. I had not been consciously creating music or writing articles. These are things I enjoy doing that I haven't done in so long that bring me lots of joy. 

At that moment I realized if it is my responsibility to let God express through me then I wasn't on my job. I was given the talent of writing...and I had buried it in the earth. I realized how happy I was when I was writing, recording, or performing music. I realized how much pleasure I had sharing my thoughts with others in the form of articles. I also realized that no matter what else came on my path, as long as I was expressing in these ways, I was content. 

And because I was content and expressing myself constantly, I was successful in other areas of my life. 

Let that sink in for a moment... 

Because I was in a state of bliss from creating and expressing my thoughts and ideas, I was able to be successful in other areas of my life. 

I was more confident. I was healthier. I was more attractive. I was more friendly. I had more money. I had more life! I had more passion about life. There is a quote that says all limitations are self-imposed. I knew I was responsible for my life however I didn't realize how I had trapped myself in a box. The idea light bulb was shining bright. I had my answer. I had elevated my consciousness to the next level and that was precisely what I had been asking for Spirit to reveal to me. 

Thank you Spirit, in me, through me, as me, and around me in the name of Jesus The Christ, my Higher Self, and so it is!